DORMIR Lived Experience Sleep Coping Tools by
Keith Torkelson
Mini-STR
This is a Mini Structured
Temporal Reconciliation (STR). STRs are
similar to charting. We use STRs to
cope. Make note the notation that our
health is failing. We wished the
belligerent Ted would be placed in another bed.
Of course, we would want a GoodBed for him. In January 2024 we had Ted call 911 for us. We ended up at Aliso Ridge Behavioral Health. The ongoing problem was: We were released to
the same BadBed sharing a room with Ted.
Ted chronically interfered with our sleep.
Focus on shared roommate
Table – STR with focus on Ted
Associated > 10_Episode_2024_Leisure_24042002_STR
Feature Image
Zep: Anger – Manic – Psychotic -
Bully
Abstract
The results are the photographs
and STR Table. We were in denial of how
back things including our Bed had become.
During the whole course of eleven or so years we shared rooms with up to
three people per room. This report
concentrates on Ted and Bullying. One
day we will get over the trauma and move on.
Moving Ahead
Associated > Uncon_Physical_Abuse_Work2004_Revisited
V2024
PTSD and Trauma?
We thought we were over the
traumatic experiences with those listed in the table. What do we have to gain to re-process those
that abused us in our past? There is a
website called AfterTheInjury to help those with Post Traumatic Stress Disorder
(PTSD).
Introduction
Define traumatic
Traumatic might be defined as “emotionally disturbing or distressing”. “Trauma bonds are emotional bonds that arise
from a cyclical pattern of abuse. A trauma bond occurs in an abusive
relationship, wherein the victim forms an emotional bond with the perpetrator.
The concept was developed by psychologists Donald Dutton and Susan Painter.”
Wikipedia
Afraid of Ted
We bonded with Ted because we had
no choice but to share a room with him.
The emotions we felt were fear and anger. Ted was a disturbed passive aggressive
bully. “A passive aggressive bully might be hard to spot, unlike other forms
whose effects are visible. Unlike other bullies who openly harass people,
passive aggressive bullies often use subtle cues, like laughing sarcastically
when someone wins or loses” (Feb 3, 2023).
Photo Gallery
We define a passive aggressive
bully as a bully that is not physical. Ted
caused intentional harm by keeping us awake at night. We used several coping strategies to get a
good night sleep. Ted would rub up
against us while in the kitchen while doing the dishes. In addition he kept the room a mess,
destroyed property and had anger issues.
Ted was an angry gambler. We hope
someone that analyzes photographs can see the truth in the pictures. We have provided a small photo gallery at the
end. On one occasion Ted ran after us to
beat us up.
Ted
with the look of Anger
Could
be Anxious also
Introduction
Rent a Shared Roommate’s
Hospitalization
By 2024 we had been sharing a
room with Ted for more than two (2) years.
Ted can be described as: Angry – Manic – a Gambler – a Bully. He also destroys things like cellphones. In November of 2023 Ted disappeared. Eventually he showed up at Global Hospital’s
Psych Ward. With this break we were getting
good sleep and bouncing back. We visited
Ted in the psych ward at Global. We did
not know it yet we would soon be admitted to the same psych ward. Ted’s hospitalization did not help. He came back worse than ever. Our Sleep and health declined rapidly. We surrendered in January 2024 and had Ted
call “911”. We ended up at Aliso Ridge.
Introduction
- Right to Sleep
The
Times of India
FYI
- Sleep is a fundamental right; a different perspective
https://timesofindia.indiatimes.com/blogs/mindfly/sleep-is-a-fundamental-right-a-different-perspective/
Sep
13, 2023
“Sleep
is a fundamental right under Article 21 of the Indian Constitution and is
subject to protection. The Hon'ble Supreme Court of India, in ...”
Method
- Coping = Earplugs
Today
is August 27th , 2024 (TU). One
of our freedoms is presenting before the OCHCA Behavioral Health Advisory Board
(BHAB). Due to this Episode: We have a
back log of presentations. This material
on sleep we hope to present to our BHAB before the end of 2024. A few years ago we submitted a project called
a Housing Solutions Bundle (HSB). A HSB would
help others get into a measured GoodBed.
Figure
– Earplugs - Theme - The Right to Sleep
Context
of Sleep Apnea
The
3 cone version works best
Results - Part of Sleep Science
Inferring
In this study we have to infer a
lot because we did not record Ted’s verbal testimony. We video-taped him yet it is of poor
quality. It is hard to wake up in the middle
of the night and video someone when you just want to go back to sleep. We have included some photos of Ted.
What is the science of sleep?
All Sleep Is Not the Same
“The first part of the cycle is non-REM sleep, which is composed of
four stages. The first stage comes between being awake and falling asleep. The
second is light sleep, when heart rate and breathing regulate and body
temperature drops. The third and fourth stages are deep sleep.”
Sleep Science for Us
For us Sleep Science is applying
measurement tools to capture the sleep experience. This paper doesn’t include any measurement
results.
Result - Consumer Speaks Out
Other people had troubles living
in our housing system, Shank’s Guest Home (SGH). Examples, were Nick who went MIA and Robert who
opted for homelessness. Below is a tag
from around the corner from SGH. Gloria
was our landlady from 2012 till 2024.
She said we could have our bed forever.
In reality she took it away while we were in the hospital during March
of 2024. She had done this with other
people when they went to the hospital. In
March of 2024 due to grave disability we were inappropriate with two of the
neighbors. We gave them an inappropriate
gift. By this time we were
psychotic. We were picked up in March by
the ambulance for Impropriety. Gloria
told our sister that that if we stayed we would hurt her business. We agree. Yet, we had been appropriate with
said neighbors from 2012 to 2023. Some
of the things other tenants did such as drinking and disorderly or cussing
loudly were more inappropriate. It has
been hard going in our new Rent a Shared Room (RASR) Harvest bed. It is a BetterBed yet costs too much.
Results - To Get Sleep - Coping
Behaviors
The table below includes many of our
coping strategies to get a good night’s sleep.
This is an example from March 8, 2023 (W) Overnight (ON). Because of these factors we survived in a
BadBed for as long as we did. We were
lucky we controlled what we did such as the window and lighting.
Results – Table – Coping
On March 8, 2023 (W) Overnight
(ON) we achieved a Sleep Value Score (SVS) – 9.5. This score is high for not having any
bonuses.
Results
– SleepAble
SleepAble
we define as the environment and roommate factors in sleep.
A
Company Person - Strengths
Before
2024 we were a Company Person. That
translates as: “This term infers that
someone is committed to the organization and has the company's best interests
in mind. This is, of course, what any employer desires from their employees”. I performed chores, repairs, cooked,
promotions, etc. on behalf of Gloria the landlady. Because I needed to keep my bed I reported
mostly strengths about her operation.
Example
– Bed sold while in the hospital
Errol
Homeless after Hospitalization
Homeless
Robert
Before
and After
Uncertain
of what went on that would make Robert choose homelessness
Practicing
Homelessness
Periodically,
the sleep issues became so bad that we worked to give homelessness a shot. We were practicing sleeping in the car and in
the park. It didn’t work. When William was put above us he shook the
bed day and night. We gave sleeping on
the floor a shot. It didn’t work. Inference: William caused intentional harm.
Resting
on the floor to get a break from William rocking the bed.
Typical
state of William
When
William wasn’t in his bed he was placed either out back or in the TV Room. He is sitting on a Bed Bug sofa. The bed in the corner is Shibata’s. We scored Shibata as a psychopath. When you cater to Special Needs People (SNP)
you get some wild diagnoses. On a good
day mine is bi-polar. In reality my
diagnosis should be Anxiety with a Sleep Disorder. You might add an Adjustment Disorder to that.
Results
- Coping – Bug Management
In
2012 when we moved in with Gloria there were Bed Bugs. She had a habit of taking second hand sofas
and mattresses. These are actual photos
we took of us in the process of gathering and killing Bed Bugs. The hunt and kill went on daily. This was the only place we lived with Bed
Bugs.
Results - Xenobiotic – Coping
Tools
SleepAbility (H) – Host Factors
Treatment Plans – September – Working
Results
Here
we address our first model or scheme for charting a Sleep Value Score
(SVSs). Even though we logged a good
deal of sleep this way the new way is better.
The revision is based on summative hours including broken sleep periods.
Our
old way prior to 2024
Results
Here
we address our second model or scheme for charting a Sleep Value Score
(SVSs). This revision is based on
summative hours including broken sleep periods.
New
scheme 2024
Discussion
The House
Currently we are residing in
Harvest Retirement Assisted Living.
Previously we had lived for more than ten (10) years in Shanks Guest
Home (SGH). At SGH we shared a room with
numerous other people. It is Ted who drove us into the hospital during January
of 2024. Again, in March of 2024 our
landlady said “You can always have this bed”.
She took it away in April when we were in the hospital. Again, she had done this to others
previously. In March we were
hospitalized for Impropriety. It is a
long story that is centered about the fact that we wanted to start dating
again. In other words we consciously
extended our boundaries.
Resources
During the period from December
(2023) to January (2024), we became gravely disabled. We had “Moving” on our to-do list for
years. It took a good deal of effort to
get us out of Shanks. We had about 1/10th
of our resources there. Now our monthly budget
is down from $540 per month to $150 per month.
We are in a BetterBed yet it is not a GoodBed because it costs too much.
The Room
For more than the last two years
we shared with Ted. Ted has some
problems: Anger issues, gambling, mania and he is a bully. He also has untreated sleep apnea. In part this report addresses how we coped
with Ted and how we became ill. Ted
infringed on our peace of mind. He kept
his part of the room in a Ted Mess. We
tried to help him organize. Ted is
territorial as an extension of being a passive aggressive bully.
The Bed
In the end (March 2024), our bed
in the room with Ted was a BadBed. There
were some good factors yet the bad factors far outweighed them. Some of the shortfalls were: The mattress
quality, Bed Bugs, and Ted waking us up.
If Ted was home we could never bet on a good night’s Sleep. When Ted was away we would gain some ground
yet in the end we have an Episode to deal with.
Ted’s overnighters
When you least expected it Ted
would not come home at night. We gained
ground when he was gone yet could never keep the ground. Progressively we became more drawn. Then Ted
would return and uncertainty would loom again. I really wanted Ted to succeed because I
would benefit.
DORMIR
Dormir means to sleep. SleepAbility are the Sleep related factors
the host controls such as medication and coping. Over the counter (OTC) preparations are also
SleepAbility factors. SleepAbility Coping
Tools are the behaviors one employs for getting a good night’s sleep. Great sleep is for us somewhat like Death. A Sleep Ritual & Hygiene is also part of
SleepAbility. Some things the host
controls are the Fan, Ear Plugs, Pillow and Bedding. Deep-down we wanted to buy a new mattress.
SleepAble
SleepAble are the factors in the
environment and the person/persons (agents) you share the room with. In the Rent a Shared Room environment the
agents are the most important people in your life. On March 8th, 2023 (W-ON) we
recorded a Sleep Value Score = SVS = 9.5.
With the scale we used 9.5 is not the best night’s sleep. Other SleepAble factors are what’s provided
by the landlord such as the mattress.
Critical Control Points
When we were trying to sleep in
our car, we knew the situation had become too much. Yet, we could not muster up the courage to
move. We have many notations of moving
from 2013-2023. On numerous occasions we
had reached the point of no return meaning severely impaired health.
Shared Roommates - Associated with Zep
In November Ted went to the
hospital to treat his mania and psychosis.
They released him without medication to sleep. This worsened his inability to sleep making it
progressively harder for us to get sleep.
We gradually became gravely psychotic.
We could not bring ourselves to finalize the Move we had been working on
for years. Today is May 29, 2024 and we
are in Leisure Circle.
Freedom
We are free from sleeping in the
same room with Ted forever. The journey we
are on has been a hard one since we were separated in March of 2024. In March we self-scored our symptoms for
schizophrenia at around 50%. Fifty
percent is bad yet not the worst we’ve survived through. As of today both we and an objective scorer
give us 15%. This is tolerable. Most of our progress is made through
discussion and being allowed and made to sleep.
As of July 1st, 2024 our sleep medications are Lorazepam,
Clozapine and Ambien. We have slept satisfactorily
since being on these meds.
Respite Control
Periodically, we would get away
on respite. Whether it was in Redondo
while visiting relatives or Motel 6 on our own we slept like a baby. This is how we gauged the impact Ted was
having on our rest and sleep. We are
currently in Harvest Assisted Living.
Deterioration
It
never was really easy to get along with Ted.
He was territorial right from the start.
It progressively got worse. We
could tell how much he impaired with our sleep when he went on an overnighter
or we went on an overnighter. He
contributed to our chronic sleep problems.
Gloria warned us that he snored when we moved in. We put up with more than two years’ of choking
and snoring.
Example
of Gambling
SleepAble
Roommates
A
SleepAble roommate is one you share a room with that has the capacity and can
routinely get a good nights sleep. If
they have interferring conditions such as Sleep Apnea these conditions are
under control. Some of the shared
roommates that we could get a good night’s sleep with are: Lanaii Torkelson, Jack
Terril, Lawrence Chan and John Tviede.
If John had symptoms of mental health they were under control. Ted is a Special Needs Person (SNP).
20240728-TU
Sleep Value Scores since New
Treatment Plan
The new treatment plan of
sleepers is as follows: Ambien, Clozapine and Lorazepam. Prior to 2024 it was
Clozapine and Lorazepam (PRN). Since the
new treatment plan was put in effect July 1st, 2024 we have slept
well. Our roommate finally turned off
his radio that he was playing 24/7 (SleepAble issue).
This Episode
We call this current episode:
Episode 2023-2025. By March of 2024 we
were suffering a plethora of mistaken beliefs (delusions). Unfortunately, we were psychotic. We have challenged our mistaken thoughts to
remedy them. Our Episodic Psychosis
Score (EPS) is much lower now.
The AVEY Mistake
For various reasons in 2023 we
became interested in Artificial Intelligence (AI). We had a belief that co-existing in our brain
was the AVEY Operating System (AOS). One
of our later developments was looking around for a good Avatar for AVEY. While in Leisure, a BadBed, AVEY just went
away with the majority of our Head Voices.
Before the AVEY Shutdown, we looked at the young Shannon Tweed as an
Avatar.
Aside
People who may have had or have a
Sleep Disorder. The following people may
have or have had sleep issues: Brittany Speers, Jewel K., Patty Duke (&
Kathy), M. Jackson, Prince and J. Morrison.
Sleep Beliefs
We believe people should focus on
how they wake up. If you wake up with a
hangover you have a Substance Use Disorder (SUD).
Room Situations
Over the course of ten years or
so (2012-2024) we occupied two different rooms and three different beds. Our associations’ in the rooms is
complex. We have pages of records
associated with all the people we shared with.
In addition, we have published several reports on Housing.
Roommate Situations
Your Rent a Shared Roommate (RASR)
roommate is pretty much the most important person in your life. We’ve focused mostly on Ted because he is the
one that brought us down.
Addressing the Agents of Sleep -
RASR
Renting a Shared Room (RASR) is
when you share a room with others that you do not love or are not in your
family growing up. Not only did Joan our
Most Significant Other Ever (MSOE) share a room at times we shared the same
bed. We always got a good night’s sleep
with Joan next to us (1998-2016). The
beds with Joan were GoodBeds and GreatBeds.
Prior to Joan, at one point we invited Elaine to live in our
apartment. We call this The Elaine
Experiment. We found we did not like her
living in our bed so we kicked her away.
Yet, the Elaine Experiment made possible sharing beds with Joan. In 2007 we moved into the RASR Environment
for disabled Special Needs People (SNPs).
This has been and is a huge challenge.
In particular, I face repeated challenges to get guaranteed sleep.
Discussion - Inspiration
In my quest to get, keep and
maintain my mental health and sobriety I need inspiration. Owen Wilson, Patty Duke, and Robert Downey
Jr. are inspiring for me.
FYI - Owen Wilson Is A 'Survivor' After Overcoming Addiction &
Depression, 'Would Like Another Chance At Romance,' Insider Reveals
“Owen Wilson Is A 'Survivor' After Overcoming Addiction &
Depression, 'Would Like Another Chance At Romance,' Insider Reveals. The news
sent shockwaves through Hollywood. In late August of 2007, actor Owen Wilson
was hospitalized after attempting to take his own life at his Santa Monica
home.” Jan 30, 2021
Daily Express
Owen Wilson Says His Brother
Andrew Helped Him Get Back on His Feet After 2007 Suicide Attempt
“When asked how one begins to cope with those times when it feels like
Hardy is trying to ruin your life, The French Dispatch star credited his
brother. He explained to the author that Andrew “stayed in his house with him”
following the attempt, “rising with him each morning and writing up little
schedules for each day so that life seemed at first manageable and then, at
some point, a long time later, actually good.”
Reaction
Wilson has long battled depression and confessed that the idea of death
“landed with me when I was about eleven.” He continued, “I don’t remember ever
talking with my parents about it. Although I do remember one time saying to my
dad—and I remember exactly where in the house—saying, ‘I worry about dying,’
and seeing my dad turn away and catch himself. And I was surprised to see that
reaction. But who knows, maybe that was part of why I said it.”” Aug 22, 2022
Managed
Passing
We
promote an initiative we call Managed Passing.
In Oregon they call it Death With Dignity. After spending 75 days in Skilled Nursing we
believe more than ever in Euthanasia of Human Subjects.
Death with dignity
Death with Dignity National Center is a 501 nonpartisan nonprofit
organization, headquartered in Portland, Oregon, that has led the legal defense
of and education about Death with Dignity laws throughout the United States for
more than 25 years. Wikipedia
Treatment at Leisure
From April to June 2024 we spent 75
Days in Bed waiting for an Assisted Living Waiver (ALW). During that time we experienced seven gaps in
medication. The medication was provided
for Sleep. On the seventh time we strongly
considered being euthanized. We were up
about 40 hours straight.
Associated > Leisure_Crisis_Cigs_Meds_Sleep_2024060701_Notes
https://clozapinerx4ecstasy.blogspot.com/2024/07/medication-gaps-returning-to-normalcy.html
P4D means Longitudinal Peace in Death Disease and Disaster.
FYI - Euthanasia - Lethal
Injection
Conventional lethal
injection protocol. Typically, three drugs are used in lethal injection.
Pancuronium bromide (Pavulon) is used to cause muscle paralysis and respiratory
arrest, potassium chloride to stop the heart, and midazolam for sedation.
What is lethal injection composed of?
The three-drug method,
which is the most recent protocol in about two dozen states, typically involves
the following steps: First, a barbiturate that acts as a sedative and painkiller,
usually sodium thiopental; second, a neuromuscular blocking drug such as
vecuronium bromide, which arrests nearly all of the body's ...Jul 26, 2019
Associated > P3D_God_Deal_10112201 V2024
At the time we fell ill in 2024 we were working on our Deal
With God. Our deal involves: Peace,
Death, Disease and Disaster. In addition
P4D involves metrics (measurements).
Below are links to our prior studies on P3D (P4D).
Blog = AnimaCules
Peace in Death – Disease – Disaster (Died Too Young)
https://ktork46.blogspot.com/2014/05/the-dag-p3d-died-young-in-memory.html
Peace in Death – Disease – Disaster
https://ktork46.blogspot.com/2013/12/peace-in-death-disaster-and-disease.html
Slides at the End
Featuring
Ted
Appendix
Sleep:
A Human Rights Issue (Homeless)
Sleep
Health Journal
https://www.sleephealthjournal.org/article/S2352-7218(15)00195-3/fulltext
by
CJ Lee · 2016
“It is a stretch to conclude from this
position that the US Government believes that sleep is a legal right in the
United States.”
Shelter Space
“In October 2009, a group of homeless
individuals (the plaintiffs) sued the US city of Boise, Idaho, its police
department, and its police chief in federal court to challenge Boise's
enforcement of certain city ordinances prohibiting camping and sleeping in
public outdoor places on nights when there was insufficient shelter space to
accommodate the city's homeless population.”
Homelessness and Justice
“The lawsuit alleged that Boise's
enforcement of these ordinances on such nights effectively criminalized the
plaintiffs' status of being homeless and, therefore, amounted to cruel and
unusual punishment —a violation of the Eighth Amendment to the US Constitution.
Citing the US Government's interest in protecting individuals against
“unconstitutional and abusive policing” and in “ensuring that justice is
applied fairly, regardless of wealth or status,” the United States Department
of Justice filed a Statement of Interest on behalf of the US Government in this
lawsuit on August 6, 2015.”
“In its Statement of Interest, the US
Government urged the court to rule in favor of the plaintiffs on their Eighth
Amendment claim. More specifically, the US Government argued:”
Life-sustaining
“When adequate shelter space exists,
individuals have a choice about whether or not to sleep in public. However,
when adequate shelter space does not exist, there is no meaningful distinction
between the status of being homeless and the conduct of sleeping in public.
Sleeping is a life-sustaining activity—i.e., it must occur at some time in some
place. If a person literally has nowhere else to go, then enforcement of the
anti-camping ordinance against that person criminalizes her for being
homeless.”
Appendix
Assisted Living Waiver (ALW) - DHCS - CA.gov
DHCS (.gov)
https://www.dhcs.ca.gov/services/ltc/Pages/AssistedLivingWaiver.aspx
To be eligible to receive services as an ALW Participant,
an individual must meet the following ALW eligibility criteria
- Age 21 or older
- Have full-scope Medi-Cal eligibility
with zero share of cost
- Have care needs equal to those of
Medi-Cal-funded residents living and receiving care in nursing facilities
- Willing to live in an assisted
living setting as an alternative to a nursing facility
- Able to reside safely in an
assisted living facility or public subsidized housing
- Willing to live in an assisted living
setting located in one of the following counties providing ALW services:
Alameda…Orange…Sonoma counties.
Department of Health Care
Services Contacts - DHCS - CA.gov
DHCS (.gov)
https://www.dhcs.ca.gov
Jun 11, 2024
Telephone Service Center: (800) 541-5555
Public
Subsidized Housing
